This week has kicked my ASS. Like, knock down, drag out ASS KICKING. Busy at work, busy with school, busy with a toddler who now thinks that whining is an effective mode of communication, busy sewing, BUSY BUSY BUSY.
Yes. I brought this all on myself. I get that. But sometimes I wonder, did I bite off more than I can chew?
Like with school – Was this REALLY the best decision? Was I thinking about my family when I decided to plunge us into student loan debt, something NEITHER of us had? Was it wise to chose a field in which funding is getting slashed faster than funding for my CURRENT government budget dependent job? Will it be worth the late nights and the reading and the projects that seem ridiculously unrelated to the topic at hand?
Like with my plans to open an Etsy shop – I’m not planning on opening up shop until mid-February. I’m certain it won’t be instantaneous success; it probably won’t be successful after a year. Shoot, I’ll be lucky if a make ONE sale! And yet, with still three weeks before my planned open date, I feel like I have to SEW ALL THE THINGS, even though I have quite the collection ready to be sold already. It’s become almost a COMPULSION now! Someone change my PayPal password so I stop buying fabric!!!
Like with my kid – SERIOUSLY WITH THE WHINING!! I have the patience for loud toys. I don’t get irritated with him pushing the same button on his laptop over and over and over and over and over. But the whining? Oh that is a short, SHORT fuse, my friends. Especially when it’s whining over the fact that I gave him only one banana for a snack! OH THE HORROR!! CALL CPS! NEGLECT!!
He whines for dinner. He whines for dessert. He whines when his toy doesn’t play the way he wants it to play. He whines when I don’t read the EXACT RIGHT BOOK. What’s worse is he doesn’t have much of a vocabulary yet, so most of the time I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHAT THE HELL HE’S WHINING ABOUT!!!
Can you tell I can’t stand the whining?
And weeks like this just DRAG on me. I find myself counting down the hours until Friday night when Aric is in bed and Tim and I can pop in a movie and veg for the night. It’s weeks like this when I just don’t have the energy or desire to blog or even respond to your awesome comments like I like to do.
I think I need a mental health day. In fact …. ::runs off to request PTO from work::
Lyz
January 27th, 2012
I’m with you on the whining. Yesterday, I just gave E some tylenol because I was like I DON’T KNOW WTH IS WRONG?!!? TAKE DRUGS…and the school. Hang in there! You won’t regret it when we all call you MASTER! Wishing you lots of good rest. Don’t worry about responding to this
Vicki @ Crowning Victoria
January 28th, 2012
OH have I been there, girl. Oh yes indeed. But it means you’re human and normal. You have motivation, drive, and desire to further yourself. And THAT? is amahzing. Because in the long run, you will have so much to show for it!
or perhaps it’s time for a change in behavior management? (just talking from my teaching experience — I find with students/kids if they are bothering me, I need to change something).
As for the boy, I hear they grow out of this. Or need to stay with grandparents for a night
You have SO much change going on now, give it time to mellow out.
And then take a day to mellow out, yourself.
YOU GOT THIS!